powerlessness

I think the one thing the stuck out to me while reading these chapters is the concept of having to "lose yourself" in order to "gain yourself" so to speak. The disciples had nothing to their names; no belongings, no home, not even an identity they could lay claim to on Earth. They gave up everything for the implied odds that following the Lord offered them, which is something along the parameters of infinity to one. And I personally feel the ability to empathize w/ that on multiple levels, sometimes one has to be consistently be willing to give it all up on a moment's notice to truly feel a profound purpose.